Hormones? Tak Faham Lah!

Hello. They say, when your emotion is sky high, that's when you should write. That's when you should post your entry. Well, this is why I'm writing now. But, as usual, I am so secretive about what I want to write. I just don't like people to judge me, saying 'ek eleh, sebab ni pun nak emo?' Well, sometimes I just want to tell people that my emotions are not stable.

That's why, well I think la, we need people besides us. Around us. People who can at least tell you that everything is going to be okay. Who can comfort you in time of needs. Who can lower your blood pressure. They can be anyone ranging from your family to your loved ones. Well, my advice is to have someone you trust to be the one that can do what I wrote just now.

At this moment, friends are everything. I don't know why, but I kept looking for one that can stand me. Well, I'm not so easy to be with. Maybe it's because of my attitude. Yeah I know I'm a jerk. By now many would say 'eleh, nak orang comment "no2 you're not a jerk" kat die lah tu' but no. I'm saying because I want to change. I really do.

Haish, sumpah dah tak tau ape nak tulis. Till next time okay? He3 oh ya, thanks ya. If you read till here because that means you're so patient with me. ;)

My prized possession (for now). The complete set!! ;D

Sweet Child Of Mine

Hello. After what seems to be decades, I come back. I don't know what happened but seems to me like a writer's block. Ceh, konon macam author of some great book lah kan. Hm, seriously, I don't have the idea, the enthusiasm to write anything. Probably it's because I'm too busy preparing for the exam, and stressed out because of assignments and all. Or maybe, during that point of my life, there's nothing interesting to write. Or nothing that I dare to write to say the least.

Okay. Last week, I went to McD for dinner. Beside us is what I like to call the Adam Family. Not because the mum is gliding or the uncle is bald or the butler is Frankenstein-ish, but because they were so weird. The little one was crying non stop, the mother (well I assume she's the mother) totally ignored the kid to the point that when the boy showed his fist to her 5 times, she didn't even budge. I on the other hand am annoyed.

The whole place was like, what...? The lady didn't do a thing to stop the boy's whining. God, if that kid is mine, I would've shove a shoe in his mouth. Tough love, I know. I think kids need to be told not to act like that in public. Or elsewhere. Because it's embarrassing, it's stupid, and it's loud. I hate stuff that is loud. Contradicts my lifestyle huh? Ha3 just look at the location of my house, then you'll know how peaceful the place we live in.

Back to the topic. Kids nowadays are getting more insolent. Why? Because parents are spoiling them. Sheesh. They were given everything that they wanted that when they don't get it, they'll cry, they throw tantrums, they shout, and the whole set. I mean, what happen to listening to parents? What happen to spanking? What happen to obeying what the parents told them to do? If we look closely, those days are over.

Why? It's because of the parents themselves. They shove in too much 'love' into their kid's mouth that they forget, discipline is important too. How is it that you get whatever you want, even though your dad only works as a factory supervisor? It doesn't add up you see. The parents are working so hard to fulfill their child's wants, not needs. At some point, even Tom Cruise would go bankrupt.

When kids gets stuff to easy, what they want when they want it, they'll never appreciate it. Work like a dog, and you'll be one if you have that kind of child. I have a friend whose parents are filthy rich, but live a life that's low profiled. Why? Because they have to earn every penny they spent. Even to have a meal out, they have to pay the parents a sum of money, because eating out is not free. Everything they have, is of their own money, which they have to earn.

That is what I call love. Educate your child on how to handle money of their own, on their own. Not giving them the world and cry on bed over credit card bills. What I'm trying to say is, do not spoil your kids. It's bad for them, and it's bad for you. Yes, they are your responsibilities, but don't raise them to be your liabilities. Where we are right now, is the result of the fine raising of our parents. Why not do the same?

Salam Pertemuan

Cantik kan? Hm, please pray that my family and I arrive there safely this mid November.

Tuhan, sampaikan salam aku pada Baitullah ya.

Aku Cuma Manusia

Kadang2, dalam hidup, tak semua selari.

Orang Jawa kata, not everything is parallel.

Mulut kata iya, tapi hati kata tidak.

Bibir aku mengucapkan yang aku redha dengan ketentuan Dia.

Tapi hati ni mempersoal, sejauh mana aku mampu bertahan?

Kadang2, iman tergelincir jugak.

Kita cuma manusia.. tapi tak lah jatuh jauh sangat.

Namun, terdetik jugak dalam hati.

Bila saat tu akan tiba? Aku akan macam ni lama?

Aku tak suka memikirkannya lama2. Aku jugak tak suka memaksa.

Tapi aku cuma manusia. Menginginkan kepastian.

Lama2, hati dah mula penat, otak mula mainkan peranan..

Tuhan itu Maha Adil.. Maha Penyayang..

Satu hari nanti, yang ditunggu pasti tiba.

Tapi aku cuma manusia. Kadang2 iman tergelincir.

Aku pastikan tak jauh aku terjatuh.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

The Climb - Miley Cyrus (ke Hannah Montana? Entah merepek je)

Tiba2 lagu ni macam sedap. Tapi hati tetap tak mahu dengar apa yang lirik dia cakap.

Blue Collared, Or Green Eyed?

Salam 1 Malaysia

It has been a very quite raya this time round. What happened actually? I don’t know. I expected it to be very cheerful this year, but seriously, my thought were dashed like a Boeing through the Twin Towers, the North one. My condolence to anyone who lost their loved ones on that fateful day. How I remember that day, 12^th September 2001 (considering the 12 hours difference between Kuala Lumpur and New York).

Okay, moving on to a much recent event. Actually, I don’t intend to write that long today. Just to babble on something that I think is important. On the 16^th of September last Wednesday, I went out to Segamat to accompany my friend for, okay that one, I can’t recall. What I do remember was that, on our way back to the campus, we were stuck on a traffic jam. Before that, I saw a patrol car which was swerving here and there passing a few other cars. I thought what kind of a copper is that?

Then we stopped right behind him. Oh ya, I saw him, he was on the phone! And to top it off, he didn’t fasten his seatbelt! I managed to take the picture of the car from behind but it didn’t actually show what he’s doing. But trust me, my four other friends and I saw it clearly. Thinking that if he’s busted, for sure I’m the one to be blamed for, well, anything lah kan. Polis.. Nak buat macam mane. Kita je lah yang salah.

You know what? I came to a conclusion that we can never rely on anyone now. Accept if you have loads of cash. The people that we thought can take care of us, the very people who vows to keep the country in peace and harmony, are stabbing us from our backs. They fine us for speeding, but their speed limit is 560mph. They scold us for running past the red light, but their three lights are green. How in the name of God do they sleep at night?

I have a friend who is a son of a copper. He’s friendly. Yes. When I walked by, he’ll shake my hand and ask me how’s life. But he also shake the life out of many friends of mine, asking them for money. Ask? Hm, I’ll prefer the word request. Violently. And he always gets away with it. Why? Don’t have to tell you folks. Now, that boy is a nobody in nowhere.

I’m not here to inflict any hatred towards those policemen, but rather to express my dissatisfaction, and I believe that many people are feeling the same way. You have to believe that everything in life will have its punishment. So, whatever you do, think before you do it. Fulfil the slogan People first, performance now.

Out Of The Blue

Selamat pagi. Dah lama rasanya aku tak menulis. Bukan apa, it's just that I don't have any topic to write on. Ada topik pun, kalau ditulis mampu membawa kepada rusuhan kaum di UiTM. Eh2, padahal UiTM penuh dengan budak Melayu except for the lecturers. Nak tulis tentang how cool Ramadan is, but simply can't because tak tau macam mana nak put it into words. But I must assure you, Ramadan kali ini adalah yang paling bermakna. Tak tau kenapa, tapi macam tu lah. Pergi masjid pun lebih redha. Kalau tak sebelum ni macam malas je.

Oh ya, aku menulis pagi ni bukan nak cerita pasal tu. Tapi lebih kepada luahan hati. someone told me, that my blog lacks a soul. Semua yang ditulis, cuma penuh dengan idea, tapi takde penghayatan. Hu3 mula2 nak jugak bantah, tapi bila fikir2 balik, memang betul jugak tau. Sebab aku segan menulis yang datang dari hati. Yang selalu keluar tertampal kat blog ni hanya apa yang terlintas di fikiran. Kalau ada pun yang dari hati, aku akan disguise benda tu so that nampak sangat formal, konon nak jadi pengajaran kat orang lain la. Ha3 Padahal nak meluahkan isi hati kat si dia.

Aku cuma seorang manusia. Penuh dengan onak duri kehidupan. Tak terlepas dari dosa, tak terkeluar dari batas norma. Apa yang orang lain rasa, aku pun rasa. So, tak heran la kan kalau aku kata, aku jatuh hati kat sorang hamba Allah ni? Ha there you go. Straight to the point. Macam Faizul cakap, aku bab lain, insyaAllah memangh sangat penyabar. Tapi bab ni, gear terlepas sikit. Memang aku kadang2, tak reti nak berselindung. God I wish I know how to stop. Kalau aku ni hensem, memang no wonder but my best compliment from any girl would be 'Eee.. comelnye..' Ha3 terasa macam Teletubies warna merah plak.

First thing yang orang akan tanya is how did I meet her. That's a good question. Sebab pertama kali aku jumpa dia, tak bertentang mata pun. Kitorang bertekak dalam cyberspace sahaja. Yela, aku baca blog dia, lepas tu follow.. Because of this one post she wrote, terus tertarik nak follow.. Baru tau recently yang rupenye dia label aku as stalker.. Sebab aku pun terus add dia kat myspace yang menjadi kegilaan ramai itu.. Kitorang betul2 jumpa, nampak semua jasad rasanya macam baru ni. Tak tau lah. Tak ingat. Tapi sumpah, never regretted that day. Hu3

Nak tahu tak, dia ni saaaaaaaangat sweet.. Mula2 text, ingatkan macam mana lah orangnya.. Takut jugak, sebab selalu text first, meet later memang akan result in a disastrous crash. Comment kat myspace, tengok cam funny je orangnye. Tapi yelah kan, myspace pernah dituduh membuat seorang teenager kat US commit suicide, so takut gak karang tetibe ada message coming in, draining the blood right out of my body. Ha3 tapi memang menipu lah tu kan.. Psychomaniac je yang bunuh diri just because of few stupid hate messages..

I don't know why, but it just is. Kitorang sangat jarang berjumpa, but i felt that dia selalu ada. Yeah, dengan teknologi terkini hasil ciptaan company bernama Nokia, kitorang sering berhubung. Text is the main medium. Nak kata 24/7 texting, tak jugak. But whenever I need a friend, she's there. Tengah marah pun boleh senyum, when she said, 'Janganlah bad mood.. X besh lah msg dgn org bad mood.. senyum cket' or yang sewaktu dengannya.. Aku ni bukannya ingat sangat semua but few things boleh diingat sampai mati. He3 Dia pemalu ouh. mula2 jumpa macam nak tutup kepala.. Ades.. tapi when you know her, dia sangat seronok..

Peribadinya sangat besh. Sebab things came out from the mouth, or written in the blog, datang straight either from the heart or brain, or both. Tertarik, sebab semuanya ikhlas. When needed, hati kita dia jaga. Tapi kalau dah masuk mood, habis kita kena sakat. Kakak cantik la, itu la ini la. Ha3 Thanks ye awak. Saya mintak doa takmau jumpe kakak yang tak berapa cantik tu. Suaranya, sangat lembut. Dia kata macam kartun, tapi entah, tak pernah pulak aku cair dengar suara kartun sebelum ni. Suara dia, hadui.. kalau tengah nak tidur tu, memang terus lelap la. Haish.. Kiutnye.. hu3

Pendirian dia sangat dihormati. Dia konsisten. Through my observation la. Apa yang dia cakap, sama dengan apa yang dia buat. If things shouldn't be said, or done, then that's that. Tak macam separuh orang, konon A, tapi sebenarnya B. Senang cakap, tak hipokrit la. He3 Wondering how many girls lain la yang ada macam dia. Susah nak cari tau. If jumpa, maybe satu per lima belas. Ha, susah la tu nak cari. Cuba baca blog dia. Mesti nak tau orangnya sebenarnya macam mana kan.. ha.. Link cari sendiri okeh.

Pendek cerita, dia memang serba serbi sangat menarik orangnya. Aku cuba untuk menepis perasaan, tapi aku cuma manusia. Apa pun dia nak fikir, apa pun dia nak decide, aku redha. Yang penting, aku dah luahkan perasaan aku kat sini. Sangat susah untuk aku open up like this, but somehow I had the courage to do so. Awak, thanks sebab buat saya tersenyum selalu. Saya selalu cakap thanks sebab tak cukup pun thanks tu. Whatever it is, tahniah sebab berjaya turunkan ego saya yang tebal menggunung ni. Ha3 Selamat menjalani baki Ramadan yang ada..

p/s; I still concentrate on my studies okeh. Don't worry.

The Value Of Education

Good day. I just need to say this. We have been governing our own country for 52 years. A lot has been done to ensure that the country prosper, that includes giving education to the rakyat. Education from standard one till form five is compulsory for everyone, thus giving everyone not only chance, but the right to obtain knowledge in schools. At government funded schools, a few hundred Ringgit must be paid, but to me, it's worth it. So that kids can learn algebra, and figure out how liquid turns to gas, RM500 per year is just too cheap.

We don't have to go that far. Omega, a well known private school in JB, charges it's students RM700 per month (as of 2008) and I believe that it's increasing this year. And yet every year, thousands of new students are lining up to enrol. Yes, the parents that are sending these kids, they drove Benz, BMW and Volvos. Sometimes, I don't see parents. I see chauffeurs wearing those cool hat Hitler used to wear, sending them. But mind you, there are also kids that took buses there. Some parents work day and night, just so that their children can get into the classroom.

But why are there so many children that still can't even spell the word pelajaran? What went wrong? Why is it that we can still see five 14 year olds mingling around the shopping mall, not knowing what to do? Why is it, that when we walk along the side of KLCC at 10 am, we can see students, wearing school uniforms, laughing around like there's no tomorrow?

We laughed when we see the images above. But the fact is, those kids know nothing. Well girls are evil one is cool. Ha3 Okay back to serious, how are we going to cope the 21st century when it's filled with a bunch of adults who can't solve a simple equation such as 5x + 10 = 20! If you ask me, something needs to be done. And something needs to be done fast. I just can't bear to see the future being held by these people. That's what leads to the coming of the Dark Age. No. We will not let that happen. Till then.

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan Ke-52

52 tahun yang lepas, negara Malaysia telah mencapai kemerdekaan hasil usaha beberapa tokoh yang berjuang demi kepentingan bangsa dan negara. Pada waktu itu, penduduk Tanah Melayu bersatu padu, bekerjasama mengejar apa yang pada waktu itu dirasakan sangat mustahil. British yang pada mulanya tidak mahu melepaskan Malaya, akhirnya terpaksa akur pada desakan pemimpin Parti Perikatan.

Walaupun sudah lebih setengah abad berlalu, semangat setia dan taat kepada raja serta negara masih lagi terasa. Marilah kita sama-sama terus bersatu, tidak mengira agama mahupun bangsa, demi mengekalkan kemerdekaan negara. Pada saat globalisasi yang kian pesat, cabaran terhadap mengekalkan kedaulatan negara semakin tinggi. Janganlah ia menjadi penyebab kepada kejatuhan kita.

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan ke-52. Demi bangsa, agama, dan negara.

English

52 years ago, Malaysia gained independence as a result of the initiative by a few people who are ready to fight for the sake of their race and country. At that time, the people of Tanah Melayu worked together, hand in hand in looking for what was considered as impossible at that very moment. At first, British do not intend to let go of Malaya. In the end, they had to bow down to the persuasion made by the leaders of The Alliance.

Even though more than half a century had passed, the loyalty towards the rulers and the country is still there. Let’s work together hand in hand, disregarding the difference of religion or race, in order to maintain the country’s independence. In this point of time where globalisation is at its peak, it is very challenging to maintain the country’s sovereignty. Do not let it be a reason for our downfall.

Happy 52^nd National Day. Demi bangsa, agama, dan negara.

Pabila Alasan Mudah Dicari

Berita dari Abu Hurairah RA mengatakan, bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: “Tidak ada solat yang lebih berat bagi orang munafik daripada solat Subuh dan ‘Isya. Dan kalaulah mereka tahu keutamaan kedua solat itu (dilaksanakan berjamaah), nescaya mereka akan datang (ke masjid), sekalipun dengan merangkak.” Sesungguhnya saya ingin menyuruh seseorang azan dan qamat, kemudian menyuruh yang lain menjadi imam solat berjamaah, kemudian aku sendiri pergi mengambil suluh (obor), lalu ku bakar orang-orang yang tidak datang solat (berjamaah).”

Dari ayat kat atas, aku teringat masa part one dulu, lecturer CTU aku ada cakap. Dia seronok tengok pak Arab sebab diorang memang sangat beratkan solat kat masjid. Bawak kereta Mini Cooper yang baru tu. And then pakai baju seluar londeh semua. Tapi bila azan, cepat2 pergi masjid. Solat berjemaah. See, orang lain, tengah2 buat kerja pun boleh berhenti solat, sebab memberatkan solat di masjid.

Orang Melayu, sangat2 rigid sebenarnya. Kalau kotor sikit pun tak boleh. Kena betul2 pasti yang tempat tu suci daripada kekotoran baru nak solat. Nak bagitau sikit okay. Kalau itulah kriteria dia, memang tak solat lah korang. Dr Kamarulzaman (lecturer CTU semasa) pernah cakap, dia pergi Beijing, solat kat airport je. Bersih sangat ke airport Beijing? Sama je rasenye dengan tempat2 lain. Tapi, tanggungjawab punya pasal, tak kesah okay.

Lepas tu, pasal kiblat. Teringat dulu nenek aku tanya aku mana arah kiblat masa kat rumah lama.

'Ala nek, sembahyang je hala mana pun. Asalkan jadi.'

Ha3 bila teringat, kelakar okay. Yela, budak2.. Mana faham ape2. Tapi sebenarnya, itulah hakikat. Sebab kalau nak mencari sampai tak sudah solat tu ha. Like my dad said, orang Melayu ni, lagi rela tak buat daripada was2. Ape nak jadi tu. Haish.. Allah tu tak kejam.. Aku percaya, kalau kita memang berusaha untuk mencari keredhaan Dia, insyaAllah Dia pun akan beri kita ganjaran yang setimpal dengan usaha.

Semalam solat Isya' dengan terawikh kat Masjid Tuanku Mizan Zainal Abidin (Masjid Besi). Lawa sungguh. Hu3 Design yang sangat moden. Pagi tadi solat Subuh kat Masjid Wilayah. Contrast sebab design Masjid Wilayah sangat klasik.

Pandangan kubah Masjid Tuanku Mizan Zainal Abidin. Allah di puncak.

Mimbar. Terukir 2 baris Surah Albaqarah di sebelah kanan dan Surah Ibrahim di kiri.

Masjid Besi mempunyai keistimewaan yang tersendiri antaranya tiada pemasangan kipas ataupun alat penyaman udara di dalamnya, sebaliknya menggunakan gas penyejuk (gas district cooling atau GDC). Selain itu, masjid ini turut menggunakan Seni Bina Jaringan Wayar (Architectual Wire Mesh) atau Anyaman Masyrabiah yang diimport dari Jerman dan China (turut dipasang pada Stadium Bernabéu di Madrid dan perpustakaan negara Perancis yang dikenali Bibliothèque nationale de France yang terletak di Paris). Pintu gerbang masuk juga menggunakan konkrit bertetulang kaca (GRC) bagi mempertingkat integriti sesebuah struktur serta kaca hablur bagi menjadikan masjid kelihatan berwarna putih dari jauh.

Apabila siap kelak, perjalanan menuju ke masjid akan meneyeberangi sebuah jejantas yang menghubungkan Dataran Putrajaya ke kawasan masjid ini yang dikenali sebagai Kiblat Walk seluas 13,639 m². Jejantas ini dihiasi dengan kolam air seolah-olah berada di kawasan kota istana purba Alhambra. Hiasan dalamannya dilatari ukiran Asma Ul Husna menggunakan tulisan kaligrafi dari jenisKhat Thuluth. Pintu utama menuju ke ruang solat utama terukir ayat suci al-Quran dari Surah Al-Israa’ ayat ke-80.

Ini ditambah lagi dengan pembinaan dinding mihrab yang diperbuat daripada panel kaca setinggi kira-kira 13 m juga diimport dari Jerman yang terukir 2 baris ayat dari Surah Al-Baqarah pada bahagian kanan dan Surah Ibrahim di sebelah kiri. Uniknya, dinding mihrab ini tidak memantulkan kesan dari pancaran sebarang cahaya atau lampu menjadikan ukiran kaligrafi ayat suci berkenaan yang berwarna keemasan itu kelihatan jelas dan seolah-olah terapung di udara. Bahagian tepi bumbungnya sepanjang 40 kaki pula mampu mengelakkan jemaah yang bersolat di luar dewan solat utama terkena tempias hujan.

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Land Of The Riches

I'm currently in the Land Of The Riches. I'm here for our annual Ramadan shopping spree. Well, it's no shopping coz I hadn't been shopping that much. Well, the spirit is not there. Ha3 But I do experience the havoc of Jalan TAR. I've never been there in my adult life. Coz I know that I'll have to deal with crowds. I hate crowds. But yesterday was quite fun. I just realised that there still are stores that's only a few centimetres wide. Haish.. Dah biasa dengan Pavilion.. Ha3

Coloseum. First cinema. I think.

This is the only picture that I managed to capture at night. Sory awak. He3 Lawa jugak kan?